Whether it is in real life, or a fantasy one, friends make the difference. They are your strength, weakness, hope, and fear. So much rolled into one body. Without them, I am lost.
I also don’t have many.
Now before everyone gets all silly about this, it is my choice. No one thinks like me, and there isn’t a soul who will ever understand me. That is the nature of things. Friends take you as you are, but they don’t have to tolerate it endlessly.
Let’s flashback to highschool friends. I am still acquainted with many, which is a miracle in itself. Most are doing amazing things with their lives, even if that is just a recent development. Seeing them accomplish things they never had their sites set on in the early days is uplifting.
How much we have grown!
There are some who have fallen, and I hope they get their act together, and realize how much better life would be if they smartened up. Still, they are my friends, and I wish them the best.
Once upon a time, people would call on me to go for tea, or a walk, or whatever they could do, just to talk. Their lives have gone on, and that side is no longer needed. I miss it, yet don’t.
My focus has shifted as well. I no longer care so much, and try to keep close to home. I too have changed. When I decided to go “public” with my little world, many things altered. If I have a spare moment, I try to fill it up with writing of some kind.
My whimsies still exist. I like walks for no reason, and sitting down at the marina, staring off. Negative thoughts still plague my mind, but that too is different, and subject to whimsies.
I hope this summer is filled with adventure, inspiration, and fun. Not just mine, but all who read this!